Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge. -Psalm 62:8 (NIV)
I sat on the couch, pen in hand, determined to journal for the first time in a long time. I was a mess of pregnancy hormones and emotions and I had things that needed to be laid at the feet of Jesus. Instead of putting pen to paper though, I found myself ugly crying in a quiet house and verbally petitioning God with raw honesty straight from my twisted up and anxious heart. It wasn’t pretty, but it was certainly necessary.
This wasn’t a one-time thing. It seems as though, when I finally hit my limit, my soul begins to cry out in anguish, longing, or anxiety and this is the result – unfiltered word vomit before the God of the Universe. And every.single.time, I wish I hadn’t waited so long. I wish that I had been honest with God from the start and that, as I began to feel “off”, sad, or distant from Him, I would have run to Him immediately, pouring out my heart to Him, as the Psalmist says.
In Psalm 62:8, David first says that we are to trust in God at all times and then declares that we should pour our hearts out to him. His reason? Because “God is our refuge”. Last Sunday, we looked at this idea of God as a refuge, or dwelling place. Somewhere that our soul can rest securely and our hearts can find their footing again and again even in the middle of life in this uncertain world. Because we can trust Him completely, we have the freedom to lay bare our thoughts, dreams, hopes, sin, regret, sadness, longings, and desires before Him. There is nowhere else where we will find supernatural healing and peace for our hearts, minds, and souls. He can handle all of our “stuff” and isn’t put off by us when we don’t wrap our prayers up with neat little bows. We see this in the Bible in many places. A few examples:
- The Psalms – raw emotion permeates these writings
- When Hannah is praying with so much emotion that Eli believes her to be drunk (1 Samuel)
- Paul’s pleading for the thorn to be removed from him (2 Cor 12:18)
- When a sinful woman weeps over Jesus and wipes his feet with her tears (Luke 7:36-38)
God can handle our honesty.
This week, let’s consider how we can pour out our hearts to the lover of our souls. He doesn’t need us to figure things out before we come to Him – He wants us as we are. If this is something new for you, one starting place is to pray through the Psalms. There is some raw honesty in there and I guarantee that you will find verses that match your emotions and that you can turn into your prayers.
Below are some questions to get you started. I pray that you find peace, rest, and hope as you pour out your heart this week.
- What are you worried about as you look to the week ahead?
- What are you anticipating?
- What are you angry about?
- What do you wish you had control over?
- What are you hopeful about?
- What are you grateful for?
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Hand lettering by Sarah Boulware of @letterseed.